Our day started @ 7:15 when we woke up. We were out of the house by 8:30. Went to breakfast at a local Cafe, then went to the produce stand and then the supermarket. Came home unloaded the car and put things away. Hung out for about a half hour and then out the door we went again. Headed North up to Concord Pike. Grabbed some lunch, went shopping for jeans. Found jeans and pants that were on sale. Went to Bed Bath and Beyond - Good GOD was that a mistake! Then onto PetSmart for cat food. I did a good deed for the day and helped a man and his wife pick out food for their two cats. Thing to note is that this guy spoke very little english so I had a little bit of a challenge, but I ended up helping him and pointing a few good things out to him that he would have never known.
It was time to head South back to the Newark area...To Costco we go to fight the weekend madness. That store wasn't as nearly as bad as I though it would be. By the time we got out of there is was almost 5. Headed over to Borders Books and grabbed a Latte and searched high and low for the 30 day Shred. Finally found it after I had given up. Off to pick up dinner at decided on Burgers at 5 Guys. Then from there we headed to Walmart and then finally home.
Unloaded the car again and went upstairs to get changed. Were I went into a panic. We couldn't find Felix (one of our cats) Felix normally is sitting by the door when we come home. Tonight.. no Felix. We called his name and that normally get him running. Nothing....broke out the toys and treats and searched every corner of our house. Still no Felix. No meowing... crying.. nothing. Holy Hell - Felix is gone. I begin to panic and go out side and yell for him. Don't know what I was thinking as he never ever left the house. You can only imagine the thoughts that ran through my head.....UGH! Felix was gone forever! I went back inside and yelled for Greg to see if he had found him. Still nothing. I joined Greg in the basement looking in every spot that a cat could possibly get into. Still nothing. Not good... And then..... I looked up... and saw Felix. He was walking around in the floor joist! Greg and I both stood there with immediate relief.... Felix had the look of "Oh Shit I'm in trouble on his face". I really do think he got up there and didn't know how to get down. He's not a jumper, so how he managed to climb up there, we have no idea. Our other cat Sophie does it occasionally, but she just has a death wish. She is the same cat that walks on our banister. So to find Felix up there was a complete shock... and the little shit wasn't making a sound. Lord only knows how long he was up there.... but I'm pretty sure he had no clue on how to get down. So after a long day of running around...and the panic of one of our cats almost missing... We are exhausted. I plan on sleeping in a little tomorrow. Cleaning a little and doing a little baking for dinner tomorrow night at Steve and Erin's. Oh... I will start my 30 Day Shred tomorrow too. Wish me luck.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Bless Me.....
Since Saturday I've been having these sneezing fits that are driving me crazy. They are mainly in the morning and are just overall annoying. I've contemplated calling my doctor for something to help this...however, I just don't want to go see her. Because then it turns into a all morning thing... going, waiting, and hearing the lecture... Not in the mood...so I will put up with this as long as my stubborn ass will deal with all the sneezing, runny nose, sore throat and headaches. Ugh....someone just bless me please!
Monday, September 22, 2008
One good thing about today...
is that we got word that Mikey is going to be home for Christmas. He is stationed in Hawaii (poor guy) with the Marines. He'll be home Dec. 18-28 (as of now) and then will head back to Hawaii and then to training in California before he get deployed to god knows where. Can't wait to see him!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
A Good Morning
While on vacation, Greg and I talked about changes that we needed to start making once we got back home. We got off to a pretty rocky start the first two days this week, but this morning we did what we set out to do. We woke up early and went for a walk, ate breakfast and then showered and got ready for our work day. It was so nice. For the past two days, we didn’t get our walks in after dinner so that has been a bit disappointing. So we stuck to our plan this morning and did it. I plan on keeping this up and make it part of my (our) everyday routine. The morning is the only time I can get my exercising in, so I have no other choice then to adjust my schedule. I’m excited about the changes we are making… it was a good morning.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Back from vacation SUCKS!
I've been back to work for two days now and I feel like I've worked 800 Billion hours so far. Why is coming back from vacation so hard? This SUCKS!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
HOME
We are home and back from vacation. It's always nice to go away, but it is great to be back home. We spent the day, unpacking and getting things in from the store. Now we are relaxing and watching TV for the first time in over a week. I'm looking forward to getting back into a normal routine. I'm not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow, but who does when the come back from vacation?
Our time away was well needed. It was great to take my parents on their first real vacation in over 30 years. And yes, I am still mad at my mom. But I've come to the conclusion that I can't change or worry about her anymore. I have other things in my life I must focus my attention on. Going away tends to clear my head and allow me to refocus on what is important in my life. We are more focused now then ever before on us, working out, paying off bills, having fun and not stressing about the small stuff. Ahh... life is good, it's amazing what a little time away will do for you.
Our time away was well needed. It was great to take my parents on their first real vacation in over 30 years. And yes, I am still mad at my mom. But I've come to the conclusion that I can't change or worry about her anymore. I have other things in my life I must focus my attention on. Going away tends to clear my head and allow me to refocus on what is important in my life. We are more focused now then ever before on us, working out, paying off bills, having fun and not stressing about the small stuff. Ahh... life is good, it's amazing what a little time away will do for you.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Rain
Today it has been raining off and on all day. Which blows because I really wanted spend some more time on the beach. So we went to lunch and then drove around the island some more. We saw what I consider to be the worlds cheesiest Light House. We then went and got dinner for the night and came back to the house. Were we've read and played a game of 500 Rummy. Cooked Dinner and now we are just sitting around watching TV. My mom is pissed off at me and I haven't said anything to her. Dad told her I was mad, so I"m sure that has something to do with it. So now she is playing the victim and wants everyone to feel sorry for her. Ummm... nope not going to happen. Have fun feeling sorry for yourself. I'm sure the rest of this vacation is just going to be LOVELY!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Warning - Venting Blog!
***Warning ---- This Blog is a pure venting blog and is written with a lot of hurt and anger. As you read this, you may think I am a true BITCH.... Which right now, I am and i think I have every right to be. I can't vent to anyone else right now... so this is the only place I can escape to. ****
My mom is smoking again.... and I am having a very, very hard time with it. She tried to hide it on our way down Saturday, but I saw the cigarettes when I looked in her purse. There were only a few and when I saw them I should have thrown them out. But I didn't. When we arrived at the house we are staying at... I was outside talking with my mom ( I followed her when she went outside). Dad was walking the dog and came back up and was talking with us, then Dad and I started walking back to the house, Mom stayed still. Dad then turned to her and said are you going to have a cigarette and she just had this blank stare on her face. I then turned around and told her..."You don't have to hide it, I know you are smoking again" and I walked away. But I couldn't leave it at that. I went into the house and then went back outside to confront her about it. I got the BS answer I was expecting to hear from her. This whole thing with her arm has really scared her. She says she doesn't even finish one and doesn't even need it... Blah.. Blah.. Blah crap. But do you think , she has stopped since Saturday. NOPE! And oh smart one.... do you think you picking up smoking again is going to help you if you have to have surgery to fix your arm. You can't lift your arm up... but you can sure lift those smokes to your mouth! How fucking smart are you!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Every time I hear her go outside, or see her smoking the anger grows even deeper. I love my mom, but right now, I HATE her! I do! It is wrong to say that about any parent, but at this moment in my life I do. It kills me because, I know that if she continues to do this that she will end up like my grandmother dead @ 69 (or before). All because of the damn cigarettes. She stopped smoking at the beginning of the year, for what I thought would be for good. Now I thought that she had been smoke free for 9 months, but since she said she's been smoking for few weeks now, I don't even know what to believe. She could have been smoking the entire time for all I know. My mom lies....a lot! I hear one thing from Dad and present it to her and she tells me know, and she feeds me BS that she thinks I want to hear and she thinks she is smart. Just like Mom Mom use to do. Her smokers cough is back, worse now.... She can hardly breath....she goes right for her inhaler as soon as she comes back in from having a smoke. Ummm... Hello, your body is telling you NOT to smoke! What part of that don't you get!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!
I know this seems like a BS Blog, and I should stop bitching about my mom, but I can't. I know she is an adult and can do what she wants but she is killing herself. And I can't just stand around and let her do it. I've been in a pretty pissy mood all vacation, because I'm upset with her. To the point that I don't even want to talk to her. And I think she knows it.
I know if she continues, I will push myself further and further away from her, to the point I didn't think I would ever get with her. I will become numb and write her our of my life, like I did my Uncle. When as he was dying... I didn't look at him and fell sad that he was dying of liver failure. I was numb... All I remember thinking.. is you got what you deserved. I hope all the partying and drinking was worth it. Well... I hate to say this, but that is probably the attitude that I'll have with my mom. As she is hacking up a lung and can't breath. I'm not going to ask her if she is okay... I'm just going to ignore her. If she is too fucking stupid to figure out that crap is going to kill her... then fine... if that is the way you want to go out...then smoke away. But damn it... don't look to me for compassion or sympathy when your lying in the hospital with oxygen hooked up to you or your on a ventilator. And oh yea... I remember this decision you made to start smoking again, when the grandkids come around. Hope those little sticks will bring you lots of joy. Because, I will not be bringing them to see you if you still are smoking. Think I won't... Keep smoking and you'll find out.
My mom is smoking again.... and I am having a very, very hard time with it. She tried to hide it on our way down Saturday, but I saw the cigarettes when I looked in her purse. There were only a few and when I saw them I should have thrown them out. But I didn't. When we arrived at the house we are staying at... I was outside talking with my mom ( I followed her when she went outside). Dad was walking the dog and came back up and was talking with us, then Dad and I started walking back to the house, Mom stayed still. Dad then turned to her and said are you going to have a cigarette and she just had this blank stare on her face. I then turned around and told her..."You don't have to hide it, I know you are smoking again" and I walked away. But I couldn't leave it at that. I went into the house and then went back outside to confront her about it. I got the BS answer I was expecting to hear from her. This whole thing with her arm has really scared her. She says she doesn't even finish one and doesn't even need it... Blah.. Blah.. Blah crap. But do you think , she has stopped since Saturday. NOPE! And oh smart one.... do you think you picking up smoking again is going to help you if you have to have surgery to fix your arm. You can't lift your arm up... but you can sure lift those smokes to your mouth! How fucking smart are you!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Every time I hear her go outside, or see her smoking the anger grows even deeper. I love my mom, but right now, I HATE her! I do! It is wrong to say that about any parent, but at this moment in my life I do. It kills me because, I know that if she continues to do this that she will end up like my grandmother dead @ 69 (or before). All because of the damn cigarettes. She stopped smoking at the beginning of the year, for what I thought would be for good. Now I thought that she had been smoke free for 9 months, but since she said she's been smoking for few weeks now, I don't even know what to believe. She could have been smoking the entire time for all I know. My mom lies....a lot! I hear one thing from Dad and present it to her and she tells me know, and she feeds me BS that she thinks I want to hear and she thinks she is smart. Just like Mom Mom use to do. Her smokers cough is back, worse now.... She can hardly breath....she goes right for her inhaler as soon as she comes back in from having a smoke. Ummm... Hello, your body is telling you NOT to smoke! What part of that don't you get!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!
I know this seems like a BS Blog, and I should stop bitching about my mom, but I can't. I know she is an adult and can do what she wants but she is killing herself. And I can't just stand around and let her do it. I've been in a pretty pissy mood all vacation, because I'm upset with her. To the point that I don't even want to talk to her. And I think she knows it.
I know if she continues, I will push myself further and further away from her, to the point I didn't think I would ever get with her. I will become numb and write her our of my life, like I did my Uncle. When as he was dying... I didn't look at him and fell sad that he was dying of liver failure. I was numb... All I remember thinking.. is you got what you deserved. I hope all the partying and drinking was worth it. Well... I hate to say this, but that is probably the attitude that I'll have with my mom. As she is hacking up a lung and can't breath. I'm not going to ask her if she is okay... I'm just going to ignore her. If she is too fucking stupid to figure out that crap is going to kill her... then fine... if that is the way you want to go out...then smoke away. But damn it... don't look to me for compassion or sympathy when your lying in the hospital with oxygen hooked up to you or your on a ventilator. And oh yea... I remember this decision you made to start smoking again, when the grandkids come around. Hope those little sticks will bring you lots of joy. Because, I will not be bringing them to see you if you still are smoking. Think I won't... Keep smoking and you'll find out.
Halfway
Well we are half way through our vacation in Hilton Head, SC. I can tell you that it has been a nice vacation so far. The weather has been great. We drove into Tropical Storm Hanna on Saturday, but it cleared up by the time we went to made it to SC for lunch. We've spent time on the beach, driving around the island, relaxing and taking it easy. Today we went to Savannah, GA and took a trolley tour of old Savannah. We ate at The Lady and Son's Restaurant which is owned by Paula Deen and her 2 Son's. Food was very good. Would recommend anyone passing thru Savannah, to swing on by. Don't have to much planned for the rest of the vacation. Tomorrow I think we'll head back to the beach. Dad and Greg plan on getting up early tomorrow morning to go fishing, so I'm not sure what else the day will bring.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Relaxing...
Right now I'm relaxing and taking a break. I have a list of things to get done for our vacation, but I have no interest in doing any of it right now. I know tomorrow I'll be going non-stop so I'm cherishing this time to relax. This time tomorrow night I want to be in bed as we are leaving at 3am Saturday. So up at 2 for me. Yea.... who am I kidding.... I never get to bed the night before we leave for anywhere... UGH........guess I better go get crap done now. Wish me luck.
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