Keeping Tabs

We had a family picnic on Monday at Greg's parents house. We brought Mom Mom up with us from the beach. Mike and Amy (Greg's Aunt & Uncle) came up so they could finally see their new house. Alexis and Chris came down from NJ, and Steven and Erin stopped by too. We ended hanging out on the deck, talking and enjoying the beautiful day. It was nice. Everyone went in and out grabbing a drink or something to snack on. Greg took charge of the grill, because if he didn't then everyone would have eaten burnt & overcook hotdogs and burgers if his Dad cooked. (THANK YOU HONEY!)

After we ate everyone spread out and I found myself on the deck with Greg's parents, Mike and Steve. Now Greg's Dad is a self proclaimed handy man and thinks he knows how to do everything. He is now building a garage in their back yard to house his 1960 (something) Barracuda. Though this new house they just bought has a 3 car garage already, he felt that a 4th garage was needed. As we were all talking, Greg's mom speaks up and tells Steve and I that one weekend soon Steve and Greg need to come over and help their dad with putting on the roof for the garage. (please note, she told and did not ask) Steve began to let her know that he had to work the 1st weekend and June, but was free any time besides that and would help. She then begins to tell Steve and I that with everything his father has helped us with (and she started going down a checklist of things he's recently done for Steve) that this is the LEAST we could do is come and help him out with this. As she was rattling the checklist off to Steve, I had to bite my lip (I think I made it bleed) I couldn't believe it. Not only did she pretty much tell us we had to come over, she actually has kept tabs on everything. I walked away and went back into the house. Now that was Monday it is now Thursday night and it still bothers me. Here is why....


I believe that family and friends (really good friends) shouldn't keep tabs on anything. You should be willing to help out if needed with no questions asked and expect nothing in return. That's what family and friend are for. Am I wrong to think this way???? (please tell me if I am)

It pisses me off to know that my in-laws are keeping tabs on crap like this. What's truly a shame is, the way they are with us lately has just pushed Greg and I further away. I'm at the point that the next time something is said that I'm not going to be able to bite my lip. And something tells me it's not going to be pretty.

Was Broken and now Fixed

Got an update from the OB's office today. The right tube was still blocked. There was an adhesion in the tube that the doctor blew out. So now both tubes are clear and open! Thank Goodness.

As my good friend told me today...It was broken and now it is fixed!

I'm so relieved!!!

Time for some wine!!!!

The Latest

Surgery last Friday (May 23rd). Went well from what Greg, Mom and all the nurses tell me. Right tube wasn’t blocked and looked good. He did find some endometriosis and removed it. The two incisions that are the size of your pinky are healing well. Was prescribed Vicodin for the pain. I hear it’s a great drug, but can’t tell you since I didn’t have to take any. Damn it!!! Only real side-affect I had was being really, really tired. And when I slept it didn’t feel like I slept a wink. Annoying.

Saturday was Greg's B-Day so we spent the weekend at MomMom's down at the beach. Was a relaxing weekend away. Today is the first day that I feel like I’m back to normal and rested.

I have a call into the nurse to get some advice on what we should be doing now as far as meds for the hormones. I also need to make an appointment to follow-up with the doctor in 3 weeks for all the results from the biopsy he took. Will take care of that when I talk with nurse tomorrow. I can’t wait to meet with my doctor. I know everyone said things look good, but I want to hear it from him. I want to go over the pictures that he sent home with me, so he can tell me what I’m looking at. Yes – I am impatient, can you tell?

That is the latest.....

Can't Sleep Anymore

With the 4 hours I slept coming home from the hospital yesterday and going to bed at 9:30, I can't sleep anymore. It is now almost 4:30AM and I've been lying in bed since about 3:30 trying to force myself to fall back to sleep. Finally decided to get out of bed since just laying there was making me crazy. So my day is now beginning again before the crack of dawn. UGH!!!!

Oh Amnesia - if you're still are having trouble sleeping, call me I'm awake. ; )

Goals for Today

Stay busy,lay low and try not to talk to very many people today. Buy Greg's Birthday gift during lunch. Stay calm and try not to think about anything today.

Yes as the clock ticks closer, I'm more and more on edge. Can you tell?

The Bridesmaid Dress

Alexis picked the dress she wants us to wear for the wedding. It will be Navy Blue and the shoes will be silver. Isn't it pretty.

Want to know…but don’t.

I’ve not Googled a thing about my procedure on Friday. Don’t get me wrong, I so want to read everything there is about what I’m having done. But to keep me from totally losing my mind and backing out of it all together, I’ve not read a thing. Since it’s less than 48 hours away now, I probably won’t. This has been a really, really long month and all I really want is to get Friday behind me. I’ve done well this week and haven’t thought about it much, so that has helped me remain calm. I feel confident that everything will be okay, but I do have that little sense of doubt that something will be found. Guess I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t worry a little. I know Friday morning I’ll probably be a mess and scared to death, but I’m trying to remain calm and keep all my emotions under control. Any suggestions on how not to flip out?

3rd Place so Far

Currently in 3rd is Greg Kirby of DE with a 14.8 pound rockfish.

NKOTB

The New Kids on the Block are BACK. I have no idea why I'm even admitting that I was a fan. But they were THE Boy Band of my early teenage years. So I must be true to myself and to them that I did indeed once love them. I will admit that they were my first (get your head out of the gutter, please)...my first concert. How sad my life was back then. I bet if crawled around in the attic of my parents’ house, I could find all my NKOTB gear that I saved for their big comeback. Yes I was Psychic back in the day...I knew they would be back.

I will say this, watching the footage on People.... I had to laugh. Watching them sing their old songs was just too funny. The girls (older women now) drooling over them had me cracking up. Grown men, trying to bust the moves like they did 15-20years ago. Too funny.....

Will I love them again? I'm not sure...Will I buy their new CD? DUNNO? But I do know one thing Joey is still HOT!!! His wife is so lucky!

Gone Fishing

As I left for the office this morning, I kissed Greg good-bye as he was putting his stuff in Rob's Yukon. They are going fishing, all weekend. I won't see him now until Sunday night. When he's away I miss him. A LOT!!!!

So tonight, I will probably spend time with Dawn (Rob's wife) and probably tomorrow night too. When the guys go away we usually end up having a girls weekend. Guess it works out good for everyone when the guys go away....

Next Week

This time next week, I hope to be on my way home and out of the hospital. I got a call from the nurse this morning. Answered what felt like a million questions for my procedure. As it gets closer, I get a little more anxious each day. I just really want all this behind me already. She gave me a list of things not to do for the next week and on the day of the procedure. Very happy that I’m getting it done first thing in the morning. I’m not allowed to wear my contact or any make-up. Great! Friday morning, I am going to look HOT!

NASA

We found out over the weekend that Eric (Greg's Youngest Brother) is going to be working for company that works for NASA. How cool is that!

Blah

The only way I can describe these past few days is...Blah. The weather has been cool rainy and miserable. So that has helped keep me in this Blah mood I've been in lately. But today the sky is blue, the sun is shinning and the birds are singing. I'm trying to shake the Blah mood and start focusing on what I need to do. I've lost track of the things that I truly need to focus on. Somehow nicer weather always seems to help. So starting right now...no more Blah moods.

Going through the Motions

Today was just a day. I was in a pretty bad mood from the moment I stepped out of the house @ 10:45 this morning. The state of Delaware must have a stupid law that won’t let liquor stores open before noon. We needed to get bottles of wine for both mom’s and couldn’t. So we had to run over to the great state of Maryland which allows their stores to open at 9AM. THANK YOU Maryland. We crossed the state line and went into the first liquor store we saw, grabbed what we needed and headed to Greg’s parents house. Where Steve and Erin were waiting for us to rescue them. Our plan was to drop by for a little while, let her open her gift and head to my parents house. Well that all changed when his mom decided that we should all go to lunch. Ummm…. Not exactly what any of us had planned to do, but okay we’ll go with it….it is Mother’s Day after all. Off to McGlynn’s we go. Table for 6 please. Lunch wasn’t bad. The conversation was actually okay and they weren’t too annoying. They paid for lunch which was even a bigger plus!

Off to my parents house we go. We hang out and talk with my mom and dad for an hour or so. I helped cut veggies for their salad, watched a little TV and then we finally headed out to go on with the rest of our day. Pretty uneventful. Then it's time to head to the mall!

As we walked through the mall I could tell I really didn’t want to be there. My bad mood still hadn’t improved. I was shopping and was miserable…What the hell! I had a coupon for Bath and Body Works to by $30 of stuff and get $10 off. I needed hand soaps, so that is a pretty good deal. But what was even better is that their hands soaps were on Sale buy 5 for $10! SCORE!!!! I am stocked up till Christmas! That was probably the highlight of my day! We went to a few other stores and don’t fine anything that we needed, so we headed home.

The day was spent just going through the motions of having to get things done. For the most part all I wanted to do is spend the day at home in my sweats and be by myself. When I came home I immediately changed in to my sweats and checked my e-mails. A few minutes later I was in tears, balling my eyes out. I received an e-mail from one of my best friends. She was thinking about me today on Mother’s Day. It was a sweet e-mail that showed that she truly understands how I feel and that she knows that this day is pretty hard for me.

The weird thing is…. That is wasn’t until I read her e-mail that I figured out why I was in such a bad mood. Another Mother’s Day and I’m still not a MOM. Guess I was just so tied up in going through the motions of the day to discover deep down why I was in such a bad mood.

My mood has improved since my good cry, still have a little funk now only because it is Sunday night and tomorrow I must go back to work. This weekend FLEW by. We didn’t get anything accomplished that we needed to, which sucks! Next weekend Greg will be at a fishing tournament with Rob, so maybe just maybe I’ll be able to get what I wanted to get done, done or at the very least spend some time at home in my sweats by myself…..Ahhh….. I’m feeling better already….. : )

Anyway Happy Mother’s Day!

Can I just have 1...please?

I've seen this family before on TV. Thought it was kind of odd for one family to have so many kids. At one point they had 16 and then they had another little girl which would make 17 kids. Well if 17 wasn't enough, the mom announced this morning on the TODAY show on NBC, that they just found out on Monday that they are expecting their 18th child. COME ON people 18!!!! I just want 1. Can I have just 1.... please!!!!

This Morning

Greg told me this morning over breakfast that I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I would have to agree with him. So for the sake of our marriage, I will stay in the office all day and he can stay in the living room. I will only come down for something to drink and lunch. Thinking it will be best for me not to talk to anyone today, which will be hard to do considering I have meetings for most of the day. Damn it!

$98.00

That is how much it took to fill up the Yukon tonight. That is insane...and it's only going to keep going up. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!